I Just Felt Like Posting

Don't know why, but I feel like posting. It's been eight months since my last post. Time has gone by fast, a lot has happened, I can't believe it's been that long. I'm at work with a terrible headache so I definitely don't feel like doing anything productive. Add in the fact that I work my ass off and my boss tried to throw me under the bus yesterday, and I really have no motivation at this point.

A lot has happened in eight months. I had my fashion show. It was a lot of fun, but nothing came of it. I'd like to pursue it further, but lack time and money. Why can't I find a sugar daddy to subsidize my living while I focus on starting my own line?

I got a new boss right around the time I was working on my fashion show. I also got double the workload, less responsibility, and no more pay. I am challenged and do learn something every day at work, but I also feel stuck. I do have a light at the end of the tunnel in the fact that I should be getting promoted in the next few months, but I guess I'll wait and see. I don't have high hopes in finding something else at this point in time and would rather stick it out a little while longer until I move to a new city.

I did move to a new apartment. I have a roommate. His name is the BF. It's been almost five months and things are going pretty well, from my perspective. I think it is harder for him because I am there when he leaves in the morning, there when he returns, and when he travels for work I get the place all to myself. I have an easier work schedule so that's just how it is. Luckily we have a lot of space and can somewhat get away from one another if need be.

One of the reasons he was reluctant to move in together was that he thought I would want to talk about marriage all the time. When he brought this up at the time I said, "No, I just want to live together and see how that goes first." Well, I think he was right. I do want to talk about marriage and engagement, and I feel the urge a lot more now that we live together. I just feel like I've found my person and I want our life together to start, not to mention the fact that I already feel like we're married and that I don't think the logistics would change much, just the feeling. Maybe I'm naive, maybe things would change more than I think. Would love to hear thoughts on this.

Anyway, I try to keep the marriage talk to a minimum. He probably thinks I talk about it way too much, but if he knew how much I think about it and how many of the times I think about it I actually say something out loud, he would see that it's not that much. It's all relative.

So, that's the update. Life is good, love is good, family is good, work sucks. That's not so bad.